all hallows

'tis falling season.
it sure is, something i've always felt. every year
one morning, the sun's tapping at your window, like fresh coffee.
next, the sky is half amber/half grey and it feels like perfect San Francisco.

i never understood you. you secluded me from our innermost secrets
but i was taken over by your scent of newness and belonging.
i thought i wouldnt love again until i was ready.

i forgot that it's not choice. = /


you refreshed me, like spring. untapped my center.
poured out another glass after another glass after another glass.
i was almost empty like before..
but you filled me up again. i could not contain myself,
for i was brand new and with you, you were my january.

it wasn't easy. it took time and patience, both things i didn't practice enough.
i had to shake my pride, but mom always taught me to walk with my lion heart.
nothing made sense except happiness.
you gave me more than i wanted.

and we traveled, troubled like always, but not alone.. for once, we were not alone.
that feeling we didn't want to be so familiar with. that, to me, is love.
and when we both recognized it, i wanted to fly.

we did sometimes, i remember those days. your cloudwhite teeth smiled before and after we touched lips.
i wanted you, dangerously. i wore the ideas of you around me like my best Sunday outfit. i wanted to impress you.
we lost sleep over meaningful nothingness.
your voice was my lullabies.
like the stars were my lullabies last june.

it's october again.. and we're falling
again.

like leaves floating, weightless, unawake..
we're falling

and i only wish someone would catch me.

catch me before the winter.
i heard this ones going to be the coldest yet..